Today, Nikki and I left the cul-de-sac. As we
made our way around the circle, Nikki tugged on the leash to go off down the
bluff. Instead of resisting, I followed his pull, careful to not slip on the
steep embankment. He decided to lift his leg and pee as I gained some momentum,
heavy step by step. He proved to be an inefficient anchor, having lost some
balance from his lifted leg, and as I went bounding down the hill the swift
yank of the leash flopped him over. He quickly spun to his feet and ran down
the rest of the hill barking at my thundering feet.
I expected to stumble to the
edge of a woods. As Nikki and I avalanched down the hillside, I never looked
past my own step. Nikki and I found ourselves again on pavement, another road, slopes
of sod on either side, stretching almost out of sight. A blue house was barely
visible, looking to be about a mile ahead. The road was a steady incline,
slowly revealing more of the blue home. A quarter mile, adjacent windows. A
half mile, the beginnings of a doorway. The single home split into a whole row
of homes. I could now see the street sign—Yale Street. I realize where we are;
I've been meaning to return.
In the yard of one of these
homes is an ancient maple. It would take three of me to wrap around it, arms
stretched to their widest. Its roots cut through the pavement at the end of the
yard. Thick moss covers its sagging gray bark. A few yards away, in the front
of the garage, a circular hole in the pavement reveals a flush of green.
When we return home, Nikki
won't stop scratching himself. I call him, and he hops up onto the coach. I
pull him to my chest and look at where he's been gnawing. I see the scurry of
three fleas. One flea jumps from out of sight, and I can hear the pop of its
springy legs. I jump as it rockets past my nose. I take out the vacuum and
sweep the apartment—fleas are tough little critters, and I'm stocked to the
teeth, ready to do battle. As I vacuum, I let the tub fill. Nikki's moppy hair
deflates in the bath.
How strange it is to
experience the boundaries disappear. Our domesticities cannot block out nature.
Lately, no new stinkbugs have come into the apartment. However, from time to
time, I hear a shriek—Jenna has found one in a sock. Neither can nature keep us
out. We fringe its borders with our pavement, weigh it down with homes. We
encounter bits of each other, always surprised. You can see it in the wounded
deer, the broken water pipe, the birds nesting in the chimney, the green eking
its way through cement. This is the promise: not that we will seek each other
out, but that we will always crash into one another.
I was just posting to Stephan in response to his entry about boundaries and borders, an idea I find equally compelling in your entry here. We are too inclined to create artificial lines between Us and Nature, when really, both are always just touching, overlapping, blurring.
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